I AM –
The sense of existence, the sense of I AM, is a byproduct of yet undiscovered interactions of areas in the brain, seamlessly synthesized together to give us a continual sense of self.
The human brain is an external, sensory oriented brain. That is to say, a good percentage of the brains processing is dedicated to mapping our external reality. That means that much of the tissue inside of the brain is dedicated to creating a map of the symbols, and content of the external world. We rely on algorithms to create shorthand symbolic maps of 3D reality that literally fill in your field of perception with memories and predictions of how the world is – or should be. We are not really seeing much at all.
Chemicals of emotion give us a continual feeling feedback for each and every moment, making the perceptual experience “feel” real. Each moment has its own unique feeling that relates to pleasure, pain, sadness, confusion, uncertainty, confidence, etc, based on actual, factual past experiences and memories, or imagined future experiences and made up memories about things that have yet to happen – and are unlikely to ever happen. However, they feel real. Very real. This is what feelings of suicidal depression are all about.
Think of your body as a perception suit for your brain, guiding external reality, sensory input into the brain to give it feedback as to what to do next to survive in a 3D world. The brain is the ultimate Virtual Reality experience. Analogue stimulus comes in through the 5 senses and is heavily processed by the brain to create the illusion of 3D – emotionally involved experience.
In truth, this moment is as fragile as a soap bubble, here but gone in an instant. The past evaporates like clouds, except for extreme experiences of pleasure or pain.
Pain and trauma tends to loop in the limbic system – the emotional system of the brain – often for an entire lifetime.
The chemicals of internal emotions are overlayed on the external brain receptors giving us the sense/illusion that our experiences are external, real, and coming from the world outside of us.
Things feel real, but that doesn’t make them real.